~Contradict~

I'm still stucked, omg he still blames me for being ______. Hes trying to inculcate that into my head and make sure i remember it for life.. Total gayness, omg la.. Its making my hair stand everytime he repeat what he said. Repetition... Gonna burst in no time... Its not my fault la..
"Alex, ni zhi dao ni zuo le she mo" I'm like... Its not as if I want that to happen. He should be happy that I'm honest and frank enough to tell him that. Yes and hes hampering my "progress" to do what I "wish" to.

Today chinese, at least I enjoyed myself.. Its nice to chat, cause its so long since I have a nice chat with my friends. Hand in my work and GG. Comes english. Oh shit I haven do my comprehension yet... Oh man sucks!

Boring..... Miss Loh is always humourous with her "hand-actions" It's actually kinda cute, however, there are people who actually find it disgusting..

~In-Extremis~

Contradiction.. Contradiction.. Contradiction... Certainly, I'm in a disoriented situation. Friendship, can be fragile... Zhong Hsun gave me a ironical answer, which I never expected him to. Of course, not fragile, we are still friends. Certainly he's not happy about it, I may be the one who is oblivious. Friendship to me, is a thing that cannot be comprehended. They are precious... Be it malevolent or benevolent.. Fortunately, not the polarity between it :)

Wonder what will happen tomorrow when I see him again. Probably we will have less words to say for each other. Perhaps, I'm the "passive" one here. Definitely, it's too vague to explain with that word. I seriously dread for tomorrow.. I yearn to go back to the past, as I reminisce about the past.

~Bewildered~

OH CRAP! I'm having a contradiction. Guilt and despair, tormenting me, damn confused. How am i supposed to explain to him =="". I'm "well screwed-up" this time, time will tell. I'm confused by the polarity between "malevolence" and "benevolence". Ironic huh.. That may not be the answer, just dont know what caused it. Perhaps, I know.

Yesterday when to see fireworks, it was kinda nice and fun..

Sorry Lewis! I'm now forbided to go to church, unfortunately. I think what I said to my mum had intrigued her too much, and as a result, she prohibits me to go to church. Ah well, pessimistic as usual.

Zhong Hsun shocked me on friday.. SURPRISINGLY!!!! I think he ate wrong medicine and became so "matured"??!!? He's always so infantile, teasing people and whatever lame craps he can possibly do. The sms he sent me was totally different. I suspect is not him, so i test him. AND ITS REALLY HIM. If he continue being such a "matured" boy, he might be able to get the______he wants.. I must say, he has got GOOD TASTE... But he faces stiff competitiveness(seriously)

I haven even started on my assignment yet..

~~~~~~HURRAY~~~~

Been long since I last blog!!! 8 August sure is a busy day for me, filming to do(can ride on bicycle!! wooooo), vietnam stalls & etc. Darshen seems so stressed up for some reason, maybe its "purely" pessimism.. Fortunately for me, I'm not involved in the "Council Cheer Leader".

Today Ms Tay not in school, its quite "relaxing". At least there are work for us to do. I have to thank Yan Hui(not YUAN) for guiding me in maths. My maths always suck to the core, I am just VERY slow. Tzu Quan was quite "bitchy" today, he kept spraying water into my ear. This is TOTAL GAYNESS!!! He better watch out tomorrow, maybe not. Cant be bothered to do so either.

Today, I smsed "her" cause I need to ask for Raja's nunber. "Hu r u? Whats ur purpose for calling?" My heart was pierced RIGHT THROUGH by a "Cupid's Arrow". Then I reply Alex:(, and then sent me the number. =.="""""!@@!@!~~

BYE