Finally off day =)

I've been enjoying my work, love it man. Mad and fun colleagues really made me enjoy working there. It's enjoyable albeit the hectic times. Today I also got to eat their food. Sitting down with colleagues and eating with them somehow soothed my mind ._.
I don't have anything much to say about my working place. Unlike JZ -.-"

What's your appraisal of me?

Finally, I got a friend working with me =)
That's definitely a relieve for me XD HAHAHAHA.

Got a friend as a colleague really makes a different man. Working now it much more lively for me rahahaha! Not that I don't socialize with my colleagues. Just that, majority of the time we interact is just bout work =.=".

Broke a glass, apologized to boss. Boss said not to do it again. Love Boss =)
But sometimes accident are inevitable ._. Will try my best.
Just that the kitchen stuff seems somehow a bit unfriendly.
Perhaps that's the way they talk.
Today, scald my hand. One of the kitchen staff actually showed concern for me. He said, your hands more important than the soup. I'm touched >.< Think his name should be Tian ba LOL
There's this kitchen guy.. A bit fierce. It's giving me a oppressive feel lol.

Tried some of the food today. The BabyBack ribs was pretty fine. But i find the steak nice =D. Milkshake tasted like Macdonald's one. The Avalanche was not too bad.
Didn't know mash potato becomes solid when its cold ._. I'm such a big fool.

I hope I can get to work at the Bar soon.
Good luck on Thursday JZ
Saturday.... I'm working straight from 3 to 11. BLESS ME WEEE.
HAH NOT WORKING ON THURSDAY. SLACKKK WEEEEEEEEEE

SHOCKED! I JUST REALISED THE GIRL IN MY BACKGROUND IS HOLDING THE EXACT GLASS IN MY WORK PLACE.
Still find my life empty and sucky though ._.

Days just pass by like nothing. I'm empty.

First thing first, i'm not a emo boy. Just pouring my thoughts.

You know what? I can afford to neglect other things. But I just don't know why your the one thing I can't forsake. I kept asking myself, are you really that important and significant to me. Many times I asked myself, am I lying? Frankly, I wish I am. Unfortunately, am not.
I feel like a big fool. It hurts so bad because it's all one sided.

If I take a step forward, I will definitely fall. However, I can't afford to be "stucked" here forever. It's either I take a step backwards or forward.
It's heart-wrenching especially I can't keep you off my mind.
You know it..

I wanna have a breakthrough. I'm not really enjoying life now. I just feel damn retarded. I wasn't like this.. Why did I care so much?

I just can't comprehend girls.

I'm already caught up in a "complicated" situation. Yet, problems are never ending for me. And great, it just piled up and gained a few more steps.

Now, I feel am a .....
Life sucks for me now. But I will still continue to find happiness despite my circumstances.

I can't get you off my mind. I really wish for that to happen. When I'm watching anime, playing, working and exercising. I will always think of you. It became part of my life. Yet, I feel hopeless and "courageless" to confess. I know myself that it's not gonna be a reality. I feel so lousy every time i have to muster up courage to talk to you.

Love changed me without me knowing. Love can soothe almost everything(rather everything). Yet, it can be the most destructive weapon. Love is powerful. I'm blinded by love. You made me do things that I don't.

Worst of all, I shouldn't be thinking of you. When am already ...... Just what the FUCK happened to me.

Determination breeds success. Sounds wonderful right? My ass. The success rate is never 100%. And something can't be forced. They always made it sounds so wonderful. In reality, endeavoring doesn't mean you can succeed. Reality is wonderful right? But i somehow agree that nothing is impossible, just the "amount" of possibility" Endeavoring does increase the possibility. But never to 100%. This life. Accept it.

I'm drifting away from you.

Hey good friend, now I'm landing on the same boat as you. WEEEEEEE
Grats to you and me =)

I have to make decision on which path should I go. When I choose a path, I wish to lose the other path. Landed myself in something so gay..

I hope this two paths will form a single path.
I have never expected this thing to happen.

Now, am pondering and pondering. It's heart wrenching.. I hope to keep you company when your bored. Please let it stay that away. Majority of the time, I'm thinking about talking to you.

I have already loose the girl whom I loved once.. I don't wish to loose the second girl..

You don't need to be pretty or intelligent. I just want you to have a authentic heart. Kind hearted.. A loving heart.. Last but not least, the feelings I have for you. I like you.. And I want nothing but you to be my girlfriend. I don't care about what I wanna buy now.. I don't care about your history. Having you by my side, its as good as having everything in this world. My feelings are authentic towards you.When will I get the chance to say this to you? And its growing stronger. It's so strong now that is "palpable". It's tangible...

Will I?
Are you happy?

I'm sometimes sick of putting on a facade. But I don't wish to be the real me..

Going Cambodia tomorrow. Won't be back for a week or so.
Life's been typical and monotone.

Green Ape... You hor..
Hopefully you will sms me. I will be waiting till 12am.
Hope you will..
Hope you will sms me if you can't make it. At least i can plan my schedule.
Hope you don't forget bout it totally :/
Anyway, played American Football today. It was "GAY". "Wei Kien", big sized and HEAVY. No way i can use brute strength to get my way through. I got past him a few times though. But majority of the time.. I need more brute strength. Soon..
Its fun and abit abit dangerous. Everytime when i managed to get past him, SK already passed the ball ._.

Hope I don't die there ._.
Bored... AHHHHH

To anonymous,
Bye and enjoy your vacation.
Be beautiful, always.
Because you are.

AHHHHH O LEVEL WEEEEEEEEEE!
I'm pretty looking forward to it.
Emaths=A1/A2. Hopefully, shouldn't be a problem for me =)

AND HOORAY. 16Nov= GO CAMBODIA. SO FUN!!! GO ORPHANAGE OMG. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
Hyper-ventilating ._. I don't know am retarded a not. But going to places like orphanage makes me happy.

And yea, i got a job at Tony Romas. Thx lewis for lobang =)

Can't wait for maths to be over. AHHHH TIME PLEASE PASS FASTER
And my godlike calculator cant be used in O level. GREAT..
Because it can integrate/differentiate/matrix/vectors/engineering mode and stuff.
And i bought it without consider that fact.
Bo bian, have to borrow from Mr Lathif.

And Miss Loh seems to be especially happy today. She can't be sad. We always give her trouble. So i guess shes so hyped up today. HAHA! Don't need go find my comprehension le(I found it though) She 100% won't chase me for it already hehe XD
Then she gave everyone a present. Cool... She gave me a "horizontal" clipboard. And wrote personalized messages for everyone. I was half in doubt when I saw what she written =.=" Too good to be true MAYBE.

Why must people be so presumptuous at times? Its really irritating... And I don't know how to react to it. It made me weird LOL. Ah whatever.


Seriously, do you really mean so much to me? It made me stress and depressed. Seriously, why am I so..... God if its possible, make me forsake this. Yes, I truly fancy you. But it's not gonna happen. So, lemme forget but I cant bear to.

Life been too simple. Plain plain plain plain. No worries.

But I've not experienced true happiness for a long long time.



Please end all this naivete. It might be a delusion. I bet you seen a lot too.
Ask yourself. Are you being manipulated or? Don't you say you despise ________s?
Why are you contradicting yourself? I can't help but to have a premonition. I guess its sooner or later. The choice is yours, I have no right to control you. Please choose wisely =) As you know I really really seriously loathe and despise guys who ___________________________________________________________________________________.



Time for some soul-searching. Giving up might be a good time after all =) Since people are all so busy preparing for exams. I guess I shouldn't. I don't wish to disrupt her life =.="

I don't wanna feel stupid ._.