Two close friends. Close relationship. What lies ahead may be insurmountable disappointment, sadness and hatred. It seems to me that, the more closer two friends are. Conflicts usually are more major. Through my analysis, I supposed that both party did not really think that will have any conflicts. Second, he/she thought her/she friend is "like this". However, to his/her disappointment. Due to some scenarios or circumstances. His/Her friend did not turn out to be what she thinks. Maybe he/she thought that their friends is good. But due to some INCIDENT they don't think their friends is good anymore. Both parties will have the same impression and feelings. The closer and better you are with someone, conflicts can spark off more seriously. The amount of "hurt" inflicted on both parties is tremendous.
When such things. Do they really reflect on their actions? And think why the others parties is like this or did this? There are always obligations. He/She might have her own reason(not selfish reason) People tend to make mistakes. There is imperfection in this world. World is full of "complications". Hatred and Sadness is "extremely" delusive I must say. The insurmountable Hatred and Sadness can cause you to get manipulated by it. You think your seriously consciously and stable. But you might not be.
Bad things happen, people always think negatively first and naturally, be more "presumptuous". I believe that, this how conflicts are started. The anger in them, urge them to flare up. Because, feelings are EXTREMELY delusive. So take a step back, and reflect on yourself. That's the most important. I supposed that its more of a miss-communications, a slight ideologist difference in how friendship should be like and misunderstanding. Be optimistic? Well with very conflict, the friendship is put to a test. This test is to see how much they understand both parties and how much they really treasure this friendship. You might say you treasure, but in reality it can be a delusion. If they pass the test, friendship can get stronger XD. ("Naivete")?
That's the irony.
So, do you think its really as bad as you think to be?
I used to be like that. I let my feelings delude me. During p6, I'm vociferous, truculent, megalomaniac, stupid, immature, lazy, hopeless, very unfit, fat and ugly. If you guys ever see my p6 ez-link card, girls will run away =.=". Luckily, there's a TRANSFORMATION! Just like handsome suit LOL.
Well, you intrigued me too much. I guess I'm inquiring too much. Sorry!
If both party really cherish this friendship. I feel that will be fine soon :)
Why are humans not perfect? They succumb to temptations.
Saturday, May 9, 2009
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Okay, I shall get serious on this. I have no idea whether is it wise to tell you so. But if you ever read this post, it might be a blessing.
I'm pretty sure that you knows how to maintain a equilibrium between School and love Albeit it is hard to get over it, a stronger dosage "might" be
destructive.
Because I used to be like you. I'm not sure whether your conscious and clear enough to know that what your going for is true love. Not long before I realised, I wasn't happy at all. I kept thinking back of my "ex".(Might) You seriously have to revise your steps/objectives solemnly. It might change your "idiosyncrasies" in a negative way for life.(Might change is possible, but for life is quite impossible.)
Do you get the same feeling as before for the her? If not you seriously better think VERY CAREFULLY. Your first girl might not be a true love. Or the other way round.
But I can see that its true love.
Well, when I love someone. Everytime I see her, she raptures my heart. Her smile can make me go bonkers. Talking to her is better than playing any computer games or etc. Everyday your close to her, you get bit of nervous and disoriented. Yet, you yearn to talk to her so badly. Lastly, I seriously like the smile of her. It's priceless but yet so precious.
Your anger,sadness or whatever bad feeling your having at the point of time. Seeing her smile can really assuaged/soothed those feelings.
So dude, what's yours? You understand yourself the most. I believe you won't get delude by emotions.
Rest assured I won't spread. Cause I have too any obligations to do so.
Like - Trust is very expensive and it can't be bought with money. I want people to be able to trust me. I want to give people assurance. I do not want to be a liar. I don't want to lose something precious.
Thus, I will not succumb to temptations.
But I must say that dating can change you. It might make you more femine. More concern for looks. It can just make you a more "superficial" person. Like - "superfluous" touch-up of your hair and etc.
Yes your right. Too much trust is also not good. However, it will hurt the girl if you sort of inquire so much. It's best not to do so.(That's what I feel) You fear that she might abuse/exploit the trust. But by checking on her is not a good thing too. If she truly loves you, she will not exploit the trust you have in her.(Some situation she might have no choice.) When bad things happen, people always think negatively. "WHAT? YOU EXPOILTED THE TRUST I HAVE IN YOU" In unforeseen circumstances, she might have obligations to do so. 1: For the well-being of ________
2: If she don't she will GET INTO DEEP SHIT. And because of people always thinking negatively, they make stupid assumption. If she REALLY REALLY exploit the trust you have in her, you can decide on what to do afterwards. Cause I also don't know what to do.(Frankly) The aftermath of such a scenario often leads to break-up. Because one just can't think more rationally, thoughtfully and further. Well, partly cause of WE HUMANS AIN'T "OMNISCIENT". By restricting her movement and freedom, will not make her happy too. In a relationship, both party must be happy. Unless she alone go with a GUY THAT YOU DON'T KNOW to a chalet? Then I seriously will get damn worried. 1: Is the guy decent? 2: Will she get raped? Ridiculous yet prone to happening kind of stuff will struck our mind. I also don't know whether to agree to let her go a not. You won't one anything bad to befall on her right.
Relationship conflict can be resolved if they truly love each other and they trust each other. Lastly, all the values in love must have. Like, commitment, trust, willing to sacrifice,understanding, respect and lastly optimism.
At least, your different from typical teenagers now. Many relationships are not authentic now. (In our age range)
I'm pretty sure that you knows how to maintain a equilibrium between School and love Albeit it is hard to get over it, a stronger dosage "might" be
destructive.
Because I used to be like you. I'm not sure whether your conscious and clear enough to know that what your going for is true love. Not long before I realised, I wasn't happy at all. I kept thinking back of my "ex".(Might) You seriously have to revise your steps/objectives solemnly. It might change your "idiosyncrasies" in a negative way for life.(Might change is possible, but for life is quite impossible.)
Do you get the same feeling as before for the her? If not you seriously better think VERY CAREFULLY. Your first girl might not be a true love. Or the other way round.
But I can see that its true love.
Well, when I love someone. Everytime I see her, she raptures my heart. Her smile can make me go bonkers. Talking to her is better than playing any computer games or etc. Everyday your close to her, you get bit of nervous and disoriented. Yet, you yearn to talk to her so badly. Lastly, I seriously like the smile of her. It's priceless but yet so precious.
Your anger,sadness or whatever bad feeling your having at the point of time. Seeing her smile can really assuaged/soothed those feelings.
So dude, what's yours? You understand yourself the most. I believe you won't get delude by emotions.
Rest assured I won't spread. Cause I have too any obligations to do so.
Like - Trust is very expensive and it can't be bought with money. I want people to be able to trust me. I want to give people assurance. I do not want to be a liar. I don't want to lose something precious.
Thus, I will not succumb to temptations.
But I must say that dating can change you. It might make you more femine. More concern for looks. It can just make you a more "superficial" person. Like - "superfluous" touch-up of your hair and etc.
Yes your right. Too much trust is also not good. However, it will hurt the girl if you sort of inquire so much. It's best not to do so.(That's what I feel) You fear that she might abuse/exploit the trust. But by checking on her is not a good thing too. If she truly loves you, she will not exploit the trust you have in her.(Some situation she might have no choice.) When bad things happen, people always think negatively. "WHAT? YOU EXPOILTED THE TRUST I HAVE IN YOU" In unforeseen circumstances, she might have obligations to do so. 1: For the well-being of ________
2: If she don't she will GET INTO DEEP SHIT. And because of people always thinking negatively, they make stupid assumption. If she REALLY REALLY exploit the trust you have in her, you can decide on what to do afterwards. Cause I also don't know what to do.(Frankly) The aftermath of such a scenario often leads to break-up. Because one just can't think more rationally, thoughtfully and further. Well, partly cause of WE HUMANS AIN'T "OMNISCIENT". By restricting her movement and freedom, will not make her happy too. In a relationship, both party must be happy. Unless she alone go with a GUY THAT YOU DON'T KNOW to a chalet? Then I seriously will get damn worried. 1: Is the guy decent? 2: Will she get raped? Ridiculous yet prone to happening kind of stuff will struck our mind. I also don't know whether to agree to let her go a not. You won't one anything bad to befall on her right.
Relationship conflict can be resolved if they truly love each other and they trust each other. Lastly, all the values in love must have. Like, commitment, trust, willing to sacrifice,understanding, respect and lastly optimism.
At least, your different from typical teenagers now. Many relationships are not authentic now. (In our age range)
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Verge of "Extremis"
I was actually going to bed after using the computer. But when I spoke to you in msn you did not reply. "I told myself your probably busy mugging and etc." But I felt that in you, you did not really bother about me. Blogging makes me feel so relieved for some reason. I can post my worries and dilemmas here.
I think that we are getting more and more estranged. Sometimes you reply and sometimes you reply. Talking to you has been part of my phobia. For I fear that you did not reply me. I'm just so afraid and anxious every time. Is this the power of love? Love is so powerful. It can makes you compromise your safety and well-being just to ensure that she's happy. You can say I'm fucking crazy now. You will understand when you love someone this deep. The feeling is overwhelming. Just saying "hi" to you can make my day. I love your smile.. Its the remedy/medicine to all my stress and dilemma. For I know, you still have some acceptance in me. I brace myself up every time to talk to you. I just want to see the smile of you so much. Though its priceless, but its precious to me.
Mid-year is coming. I wonder how am I going to suffer in the hall for my Chinese and Maths. Every time I saw you, I can't be myself. When you don't reply my message, you make me so upset. Guess I don't stand much hope.
Love, please stop tormenting me. It's driving me into a "frenzy" mode.
Jia Zhen, perhaps your right. My naivete, sigh. It's just a drug. But this dosage is extremely high.
I just wanna shout out loud. To drive away my worries and dilemma. At this point of time, I shouldn't be thinking of you. But is just so great. I'm so afraid of rejection.
You must not be the most beautiful, affluent, intelligent and cutest to be my girlfriend. I have fallen for the imperfect you. Will I ever get the opportunity to get to say I love you? I have no idea how to prove my love and authenticity to you. Even if I did. You don't fancy me, its so futile. Furthermore, will you despise a EN? I doubt you will accept me though. And that makes me suffer from insomnia. I cant sleep right now(1.18am)
You possess the power to drive me crazy.
You possess the power to make me on cloud-nine
You possess the power to empower me despite the "prevailing circumstances"
You possess the power to boost my confidence
You possess the power to rapture my heart.
You possess the power to assuage the insurmountable amount of stress and agony in me.
So what can I do for you?
True love is doing whats best for the person. Not just possessing her. If I can be your source of security and happiness, I guess I am contented enough already. Albeit I may not have you.
It will definitely be a blessing to soothe you when your down.
It will definitely be a blessing to cheer you up whenever your angry and upset.
IT will definitely be a blessing when I'm there to lend a listening-ear and share your burdens and dilemmas.
It will definitely be a blessing that you will come to me when your down. Probably _ _ _ is a better medicine for you.
So what am I to you? You already know that I like you.
All About Us - Tatu
Talking to you as a friend, is already a blessing itself.
Guess what, you replied my message (1.27am) I AM HAPPY!!!!!! HYPER-VENTILATING. However, your reply is getting more and more apathetic. Since you replied, I couldn't ask for more. But your replies just got and more and more "content" in it. It raptures my heart so much. I realised I'm too paranoid? AHAHAHA
Now I have the impetus to study again. OKAY!!!!!!!!!!! I HAVE POSTED LONG ENOUGH!
Jia Zhen, I realise what is true happiness and blessing now. Thanks to you.
I think that we are getting more and more estranged. Sometimes you reply and sometimes you reply. Talking to you has been part of my phobia. For I fear that you did not reply me. I'm just so afraid and anxious every time. Is this the power of love? Love is so powerful. It can makes you compromise your safety and well-being just to ensure that she's happy. You can say I'm fucking crazy now. You will understand when you love someone this deep. The feeling is overwhelming. Just saying "hi" to you can make my day. I love your smile.. Its the remedy/medicine to all my stress and dilemma. For I know, you still have some acceptance in me. I brace myself up every time to talk to you. I just want to see the smile of you so much. Though its priceless, but its precious to me.
Mid-year is coming. I wonder how am I going to suffer in the hall for my Chinese and Maths. Every time I saw you, I can't be myself. When you don't reply my message, you make me so upset. Guess I don't stand much hope.
Love, please stop tormenting me. It's driving me into a "frenzy" mode.
Jia Zhen, perhaps your right. My naivete, sigh. It's just a drug. But this dosage is extremely high.
I just wanna shout out loud. To drive away my worries and dilemma. At this point of time, I shouldn't be thinking of you. But is just so great. I'm so afraid of rejection.
You must not be the most beautiful, affluent, intelligent and cutest to be my girlfriend. I have fallen for the imperfect you. Will I ever get the opportunity to get to say I love you? I have no idea how to prove my love and authenticity to you. Even if I did. You don't fancy me, its so futile. Furthermore, will you despise a EN? I doubt you will accept me though. And that makes me suffer from insomnia. I cant sleep right now(1.18am)
You possess the power to drive me crazy.
You possess the power to make me on cloud-nine
You possess the power to empower me despite the "prevailing circumstances"
You possess the power to boost my confidence
You possess the power to rapture my heart.
You possess the power to assuage the insurmountable amount of stress and agony in me.
So what can I do for you?
True love is doing whats best for the person. Not just possessing her. If I can be your source of security and happiness, I guess I am contented enough already. Albeit I may not have you.
It will definitely be a blessing to soothe you when your down.
It will definitely be a blessing to cheer you up whenever your angry and upset.
IT will definitely be a blessing when I'm there to lend a listening-ear and share your burdens and dilemmas.
It will definitely be a blessing that you will come to me when your down. Probably _ _ _ is a better medicine for you.
So what am I to you? You already know that I like you.
All About Us - Tatu
Talking to you as a friend, is already a blessing itself.
Guess what, you replied my message (1.27am) I AM HAPPY!!!!!! HYPER-VENTILATING. However, your reply is getting more and more apathetic. Since you replied, I couldn't ask for more. But your replies just got and more and more "content" in it. It raptures my heart so much. I realised I'm too paranoid? AHAHAHA
Now I have the impetus to study again. OKAY!!!!!!!!!!! I HAVE POSTED LONG ENOUGH!
Jia Zhen, I realise what is true happiness and blessing now. Thanks to you.
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Oh great. First thing first - fuck mid-year. Second - fuck that I don't know how to sew. Third - fuck that Mid-year Chinese is go close to her bday. It seems like i got one month plus. But considering the fact that my schedule will be super-duper-uber occupied. I don't have much time. Man.. I CANT SEW!!
I already planned the template for the bear liao. Seriously need to chiong sia.. I don't care if I need to burn midnight oil. I don't fucking care I get "poked" by the needle how many times. I JUST WANT IT TO BE DONE! I will forsake my entertainment and everything to get it done before my O' Chinese. Well, actually is quite entertaining LOL. Just can't really go out nia.
My sister... OMG. HOW DO YOU KNOW? AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~ NOOOOO~~~~~ SHITT~~~~ FAG!
Well, enjoying being single right now. Single so fun.. But without some commitment, it may not be fun at all. Lack purpose in life. Well, considering the fact that I'm still 15+. Apparently is just not the right time >.<
And ________. Why do you keep talking to me now? You freaked me out. Weird. We like so cold towards after the ______ ___. Then during the rehearsal when you sit beside me. You just suddenly talked to me. Scary...
Now I'm granted the wish I wished for a year back. That's too bad.. Now I don't wish to have it anymore. I have learn to accept my new life. Yet, I'm brought back in the past. The feeling is not there anymore. How ironic. My life is made so difficult is depressing for me. True bliss, is not you. True bliss is her.
And last Tuesday, a girl freaked me out. 7plus in school. Zhong Hsun and me were doing Amaths. Suddenly Xue Qi. Want me to meet this girl. I dont wish to say anymore. Don't wanna give the impression that I'm buay hial bai. Sigh. Things you yearn for are so hard to get... Albeit you endeavored, you might not succeed.
I don't wanna "invite" you in a relationship yet. I wanna test myself first. To see how much I truly love you. To judge my authenticity. If I can't pass my own test. I rather be single. This shows that I failed. Meanwhile, I will let you know that I still like you. After all, academic is also important. I will wait till after your O'. I will wait. Lastly, I don't wish to let people misconstrued that I'm a despo. And I'm clear and conscious to know that I'm not a despo. I won't die without a girl.
I already planned the template for the bear liao. Seriously need to chiong sia.. I don't care if I need to burn midnight oil. I don't fucking care I get "poked" by the needle how many times. I JUST WANT IT TO BE DONE! I will forsake my entertainment and everything to get it done before my O' Chinese. Well, actually is quite entertaining LOL. Just can't really go out nia.
My sister... OMG. HOW DO YOU KNOW? AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~ NOOOOO~~~~~ SHITT~~~~ FAG!
Well, enjoying being single right now. Single so fun.. But without some commitment, it may not be fun at all. Lack purpose in life. Well, considering the fact that I'm still 15+. Apparently is just not the right time >.<
And ________. Why do you keep talking to me now? You freaked me out. Weird. We like so cold towards after the ______ ___. Then during the rehearsal when you sit beside me. You just suddenly talked to me. Scary...
Now I'm granted the wish I wished for a year back. That's too bad.. Now I don't wish to have it anymore. I have learn to accept my new life. Yet, I'm brought back in the past. The feeling is not there anymore. How ironic. My life is made so difficult is depressing for me. True bliss, is not you. True bliss is her.
And last Tuesday, a girl freaked me out. 7plus in school. Zhong Hsun and me were doing Amaths. Suddenly Xue Qi. Want me to meet this girl. I dont wish to say anymore. Don't wanna give the impression that I'm buay hial bai. Sigh. Things you yearn for are so hard to get... Albeit you endeavored, you might not succeed.
I don't wanna "invite" you in a relationship yet. I wanna test myself first. To see how much I truly love you. To judge my authenticity. If I can't pass my own test. I rather be single. This shows that I failed. Meanwhile, I will let you know that I still like you. After all, academic is also important. I will wait till after your O'. I will wait. Lastly, I don't wish to let people misconstrued that I'm a despo. And I'm clear and conscious to know that I'm not a despo. I won't die without a girl.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
God, perhaps let me like/love no one.
For all the while, I think am in naivete. I always thought your luckier than me. However, contrary to my thoughts. I'm indeed more lucky than you. Well, I guess thats life.
You gave me a wake up call. Am I really seeking for true love? But I seriously feel damn shiok when talking to her. Just felt that she's "rapturing" my heart Just no freaking idea. The best remedy to my emotion dilemmas. I will stop whatever I'm doing just to text her. Neglecting my objectives, etc.
But friend, you deterred me to do what I want. So dude, should I treat this as a delusion? Persist in my own so called "beliefs". So dude, how strong is my beliefs? Don't care her anymore?
Please don't spread thx.
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Ah well, I DON'T WANNA THINK ANYMORE. ITS FUCKING PAINFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT JUST MAKE ME EMO FOR LIKE ONE-THIRD OF THE DAY. GIVING ME THE TENTATIVES TO LEAVE SCHOOL. I WANNA SCREW THE LIFE I'M HAVING RIGHT NOW~ I'm so scared and anxious of rejections.. I don't wanna like a girl like this.. Though I'm not a guy who just want to get into a relationship for "fun". Lastly, I'm not a despo. I don't take any girls I don't like as my girlfriend. Why can't you be like some other girls that comes to me?
Perhaps God wants me to strive for it. Fear is my nemesis. God embrace me with your grace and guide me with your light and holiness. Please, I need the morale and courage. I'm praying to you God.
(If you read you should know that I'm referring to you)Sorry friend... I can't help or advise you much. That's all I can do to help. Cheer Up. I won't ask to let you reminisce about the past. Your blog tells all. Though other people can't tell. Accept it man.. (This shows that she's not your Mrs.Right) But I can be a councilor XD. I don't know whether my advice can help you much. Lastly, be friends. Better than losing a friend.
Perhaps the things I can do to make me stop having such a painful life.
1: Go gym - intensive training.
2: Learn to cook pasta.
3: Learn to play guitar.
4: Get better in my academic.
5: Get a new life.
6: Find new hobbies.
7: Don't Emo!
I have feelings towards you for 6months.
You gave me a wake up call. Am I really seeking for true love? But I seriously feel damn shiok when talking to her. Just felt that she's "rapturing" my heart Just no freaking idea. The best remedy to my emotion dilemmas. I will stop whatever I'm doing just to text her. Neglecting my objectives, etc.
But friend, you deterred me to do what I want. So dude, should I treat this as a delusion? Persist in my own so called "beliefs". So dude, how strong is my beliefs? Don't care her anymore?
Please don't spread thx.
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Ah well, I DON'T WANNA THINK ANYMORE. ITS FUCKING PAINFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT JUST MAKE ME EMO FOR LIKE ONE-THIRD OF THE DAY. GIVING ME THE TENTATIVES TO LEAVE SCHOOL. I WANNA SCREW THE LIFE I'M HAVING RIGHT NOW~ I'm so scared and anxious of rejections.. I don't wanna like a girl like this.. Though I'm not a guy who just want to get into a relationship for "fun". Lastly, I'm not a despo. I don't take any girls I don't like as my girlfriend. Why can't you be like some other girls that comes to me?
Perhaps God wants me to strive for it. Fear is my nemesis. God embrace me with your grace and guide me with your light and holiness. Please, I need the morale and courage. I'm praying to you God.
(If you read you should know that I'm referring to you)Sorry friend... I can't help or advise you much. That's all I can do to help. Cheer Up. I won't ask to let you reminisce about the past. Your blog tells all. Though other people can't tell. Accept it man.. (This shows that she's not your Mrs.Right) But I can be a councilor XD. I don't know whether my advice can help you much. Lastly, be friends. Better than losing a friend.
Perhaps the things I can do to make me stop having such a painful life.
1: Go gym - intensive training.
2: Learn to cook pasta.
3: Learn to play guitar.
4: Get better in my academic.
5: Get a new life.
6: Find new hobbies.
7: Don't Emo!
I have feelings towards you for 6months.
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Nafa test wad sad.
2cm more to 5As.. NOOOO. SIT AND REACH 43... A is 45 NOOO~!~!~!~!~!~!~! :(
Statistic
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Sit and Reach - First attempt - 43 - B :( † Second attempt - 39 - WTFFFFFFF !@!@!@!
Yan Hui first:43 second:47 Gratz.
Shuttle Run - First attempt 10.46 - C :( † Second attempt 9.68 - A :)
Pull-Up - First attempt 10 - A :) Its more than that, but Mrs Teo say not counted :(
Second attempt 13 - A :) Actually 15. But two never above chins :(
Yong Kiat - 17. Sad you can't reach 21
Standing Broad Jump - First attempt - forgot. † Second attempt - 253 :)
Sit-Ups - Only one attempt - 50. Lazy do more.
Sigh. Shattered Dreams of obtaining 5As. Well forget it, I already secured a gold :D
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Anyway, Mid-year coming. Nuuu D: SADDDDDDD. No time to get distracted.
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Hyper-ventilating Jia Zhen. You succeeded. Mine.... Not even secured in the first place. GRATZ DUDE!
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To ruffians - All of you motherfuckers. Ya think preying on the weak is fun? I'm telling you guys its a ignominy. High caliber of ignominy is what you guys are. What a hilarious joke. Got courage come alone la. Need your dog companions with you? Dogs - you ruffians source of courage? Fuck off _l_ Don't come and "Zi Siao" my friends. They ignored you cause they are decent people. Don't ever get on my nerves. I'm different. Albeit I don't resort to physical violence. I'm not the person you know in school. Depending on the circumstances, I may not be magnanimous.
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2cm more to 5As.. NOOOO. SIT AND REACH 43... A is 45 NOOO~!~!~!~!~!~!~! :(
Statistic
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Sit and Reach - First attempt - 43 - B :( † Second attempt - 39 - WTFFFFFFF !@!@!@!
Yan Hui first:43 second:47 Gratz.
Shuttle Run - First attempt 10.46 - C :( † Second attempt 9.68 - A :)
Pull-Up - First attempt 10 - A :) Its more than that, but Mrs Teo say not counted :(
Second attempt 13 - A :) Actually 15. But two never above chins :(
Yong Kiat - 17. Sad you can't reach 21
Standing Broad Jump - First attempt - forgot. † Second attempt - 253 :)
Sit-Ups - Only one attempt - 50. Lazy do more.
Sigh. Shattered Dreams of obtaining 5As. Well forget it, I already secured a gold :D
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Anyway, Mid-year coming. Nuuu D: SADDDDDDD. No time to get distracted.
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Hyper-ventilating Jia Zhen. You succeeded. Mine.... Not even secured in the first place. GRATZ DUDE!
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To ruffians - All of you motherfuckers. Ya think preying on the weak is fun? I'm telling you guys its a ignominy. High caliber of ignominy is what you guys are. What a hilarious joke. Got courage come alone la. Need your dog companions with you? Dogs - you ruffians source of courage? Fuck off _l_ Don't come and "Zi Siao" my friends. They ignored you cause they are decent people. Don't ever get on my nerves. I'm different. Albeit I don't resort to physical violence. I'm not the person you know in school. Depending on the circumstances, I may not be magnanimous.
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Saturday, April 4, 2009
Your the source of my tentative to leave school.
No idea I'm paranoid a not. But i feel that your beginning to be more apathetic to reply my messages.
Usual, hanged out with jz, ken and company. Slacked. Played frisbee. Don't have the mood with me though. Can't get back my usual mood. Shesh, its getting way too destructive for me. Seriously need to change my mentality~ Its sorta insidious.
Somehow, endeavoring seems to be useless.
At least JZ is better than me.. Kinda jealous though =.="
Every time you intrigues me, no matter how small the thing is.
Seriously, why am I attracted to you? (It ends here)
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I just can't play drums.. Seriously suck at it. Need to find something to occupy my mind besides reading and playing.
Saturday, food-court. Tissue paper on table. Some auntie used it to "chop" place. Then she approached us and said its her seat and went back to the stall. Then like buay song. Nvm, we find another place. Then Kenneth suddenly took out the tissue. HE TOOK IT.(not with ignorance) Then some other people settled down. Then "she" came back and said its her place. But cannot find her tissue so she had to sit somewhere else LOL. Feel kinda bad. But use tissue to chop abit _________(speechless)
"Teach her not to chop table with tissue"(By Ken) I feel that I'm a villain yet a protagonist LOL. First time have this time of feeling thanks to Kenneth. Quite funny though.
Sometimes I use the wrong words to talk =.=" Why some teachers always think they are in the right. She can take back her words. I cant? This is bullshit. Apology letter? You ask people to reflect on themselves but you don't. You just think your right. At least I have the moral courage to admit that am partly at fault. But do u think about wad u did in the first place is perfectly fine? Physically and verbally HUGE DIFFERENCE. DONT CLASSIFY IN THE SAME CATEGORY AND SIMPLY REDRAW BACK YOUR WORDS WHEN WE POINTED OUT. CANT WE TAKE BACK OUR JOKES TO YOU? HUH!~@#$@$$@ Abusing authority? Infuriation.. EXASPERATION Why cant u just reflect? How magnanimous you are. Seriously hope that this Wednesday you will not mix personal and sch work together. Precisely we are close to you then we joke with you. Yet you said "Am not your friend" But we do treat you as one. Seriously damn hurting. Starting to hate you more and more. Despise the way you do things. Don't ever expect me to be "kind" to you the next time. I might not even follow you to the general office and take the statement form. So what if I am a councilor. Doesn't mean I have to listen to what is wrong. Seriously hope that you did take the leave cause of what happened. Perhaps, you let anger manipulated me. Speak to my mother/brother if you have any dispute. A statement form is not gonna scare me albeit i am a councilor.
Why must my classmate ask me to keep quiet. Yes I know they meant good. Thanks Guys. But I will like to do things in my own way. I'm not a primary school kid anymore. Why should we be afraid of teachers in the first place.
Mr Lathif, your magnanimy and benevolence surprises me. Your burning passion motivates me to study. One day, you can be a extraordinary teacher. You are one now.
No idea I'm paranoid a not. But i feel that your beginning to be more apathetic to reply my messages.
Usual, hanged out with jz, ken and company. Slacked. Played frisbee. Don't have the mood with me though. Can't get back my usual mood. Shesh, its getting way too destructive for me. Seriously need to change my mentality~ Its sorta insidious.
Somehow, endeavoring seems to be useless.
At least JZ is better than me.. Kinda jealous though =.="
Every time you intrigues me, no matter how small the thing is.
Seriously, why am I attracted to you? (It ends here)
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I just can't play drums.. Seriously suck at it. Need to find something to occupy my mind besides reading and playing.
Saturday, food-court. Tissue paper on table. Some auntie used it to "chop" place. Then she approached us and said its her seat and went back to the stall. Then like buay song. Nvm, we find another place. Then Kenneth suddenly took out the tissue. HE TOOK IT.(not with ignorance) Then some other people settled down. Then "she" came back and said its her place. But cannot find her tissue so she had to sit somewhere else LOL. Feel kinda bad. But use tissue to chop abit _________(speechless)
"Teach her not to chop table with tissue"(By Ken) I feel that I'm a villain yet a protagonist LOL. First time have this time of feeling thanks to Kenneth. Quite funny though.
Sometimes I use the wrong words to talk =.=" Why some teachers always think they are in the right. She can take back her words. I cant? This is bullshit. Apology letter? You ask people to reflect on themselves but you don't. You just think your right. At least I have the moral courage to admit that am partly at fault. But do u think about wad u did in the first place is perfectly fine? Physically and verbally HUGE DIFFERENCE. DONT CLASSIFY IN THE SAME CATEGORY AND SIMPLY REDRAW BACK YOUR WORDS WHEN WE POINTED OUT. CANT WE TAKE BACK OUR JOKES TO YOU? HUH!~@#$@$$@ Abusing authority? Infuriation.. EXASPERATION Why cant u just reflect? How magnanimous you are. Seriously hope that this Wednesday you will not mix personal and sch work together. Precisely we are close to you then we joke with you. Yet you said "Am not your friend" But we do treat you as one. Seriously damn hurting. Starting to hate you more and more. Despise the way you do things. Don't ever expect me to be "kind" to you the next time. I might not even follow you to the general office and take the statement form. So what if I am a councilor. Doesn't mean I have to listen to what is wrong. Seriously hope that you did take the leave cause of what happened. Perhaps, you let anger manipulated me. Speak to my mother/brother if you have any dispute. A statement form is not gonna scare me albeit i am a councilor.
Why must my classmate ask me to keep quiet. Yes I know they meant good. Thanks Guys. But I will like to do things in my own way. I'm not a primary school kid anymore. Why should we be afraid of teachers in the first place.
Mr Lathif, your magnanimy and benevolence surprises me. Your burning passion motivates me to study. One day, you can be a extraordinary teacher. You are one now.
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