Spare me.. This week has already been so tough...

So tireddd and frustrated

To you, I've done my best.
If you really love me, say you love me..

Press on Alex, press on..

Every time when I see someone in great need; my heart sunk, especially when I can't do anything at all.

One main factor that stopped me from helping is fear of attracting too much attention. Am a guy who don't like such attentions..

To me, helping people needs courage.
God, what is it that your showing me?

It seems what you said really hurt me a lot..
Seems to you, am just those kind of guys.. I can't stop thinking about it.. The more I think about it, the more sad and frustrated I am..

It seems what you said really hurt me a lot..
Seems to you, am just those kind of guys.. I can't stop thinking about it.. The more I think about it, the more sad and frustrated I am..

Am really hurt, but
I can't and won't give up on this r/s

Perhaps I've really failed to be a good bf

I can't always bottle up my feelings when you and I have a dispute. I know your hurt, your always insecure. And I've always been trying my best to reassure you. I've been really trying, its not easy, but I'll always press on for a love you. Since the day I chose you, am already prepared to accept your flaws. But am hurt too, I can't always keep quiet about how I feel for the things you said. I can't hide it anymore. The reason why I kept quiet was because, am afraid that if i express how i feel, you be even more insecure, so I kept quiet. But this can't go on forever.. It's not gonna work out in a long run. You've to understand my emotions too..

The things you said today really pierce my heart, though you may not mean it.. It really hurt..

I've always thought if I were to express my unhappiness it be selfish. So I kept quiet how i feel. I hope you will see this..

Your the bolster that I got it with all my love, how can I give up easily?
Hope you understand my heart...

There may a day you don't wish to talk to me anymore, but to let you know, I'll be there for you.

Ciao. Hope you get back to me with a smile =)

I felt so useless..

Why am I harsh in the way I speak?
Really sorry Bozo=(

Why is there fury? Sigh.. After all that has happen, I just felt a sense of emptiness...

Also, sometimes, I don't know whens the right time to give assurance..

When you said that you "sort of" like me, I was just astonished. Am not sure whether are you testing me to see I'll wait. If then, am really sorry that I scored a F9 for that. Somehow there was this sense of remorse. I kept thinking, did I gave up on you too fast? I don't wanna persist on something that will never work. I thought that you'll never like me; so I took a step back. But this time, I was wrong. I felt that I shouldn't persist; and thus I gave up. Cause the previous time I persisted(my ex), it didn't turn out well. If only I could understand what you were thinking at that point of time.

You've have the x-factor that attracted me to you. Your beautiful..

When you told me that, I'm already attached. It all too late...
Am sorry.

Turn back? How long are you going to wait? How are you sure that if I turn back, I'll really love you? I may just obliviously treat you as a spare..

Why can't you just be yourself?

Why must this happen when I already gave my heart?

Never in my life, I had such an encounter...
On the low point of a roller coaster...

But I know, there's always someone I can rely on.. God I love you. Help us overcome this =) Am betting my all in you.

Love you too Bozo =)

Love is something beautiful created by God. Love is like a double edge sword. It can cause great hurt and can cause unspeakable joy to a person's life.

Love is not just about BGR. It's something essential that we must have in life. Love for the people is important. Loving people brings joy to your life too. True love is like a lifetime devotion. It's essential because, we need it too. We need love and we give love - this makes us happy.

However love in a BGR is much more intricate and it often fails. Human are born of selfish nature. They all seek happiness from one another. If one of them fails to give another part the happiness he/she wants. Conflict arises - PS KHONG
I realize in a relationship, there must be a lot virtue. The virtues are "lifetime" commitment, empathy, magnanimity, patience, honestly, and of course mutual trust between each other. Love will be the key to bind all this together. Without love, there cannot be all of this virtues. Love, Faith, and Hope are essential in marriage and even BGR. I believe this is a relationship that I myself desires.

Love of impulse will never last. When you based things on feelings, its often very risky. Certain feelings don't last forever, and when this feelings fades is when the time a relationship starts to fall. Thus, make sure shes the right girl for you. Don't act too fast, give it some time to think about it. If not you will only end up ruining others' lives.

Another issue I want to talk about is patching back. Most of time is guys who ask for a patch. Frankly speaking, in general, guys are more impulsive. For example they do something wrong, then broke up. Probably because of their hard-to-change habits? Then they acted on moment of impulse. I believe that majority of the guys have more feelings for a girl after broke up. That's just my analogy. Then they ask for a patch. Then they do stupid things again. It's important for a girl to know what she wants. And not make carnal decision based on the anxiety of hurting the guy.

Love is really, a lifetime commitment. Are you ready?

Indeed, I made a tough decision.. I had to break the ice. I feel its the best for us. It was quite a heartbreaking decision.. Am down and heavy with sorrow.. Crap, seriously.. Somehow I regretted it a lot. Looking on the another side, it's a good thing. Perhaps my mind and heart have never been clear. I might just hurt you in the end. I really hate myself for that. Am so afraid that am just in "substitution mode".

It's a tragedy for me that very little girl understands me. Probably the way I portray myself contradicts with who am really am.

I felt happy too.. That I can move on.. My priority now is studies. I can't be thinking bout this all the time.. Besides, I know vividly in my heart, it's not gonna happen, right from the start. No use holding on right? It be very selfish for me to keep clinching on you. I've to stop. Perhaps, in the next few months, we'll never talk to each other again. I am sure I really like you. However,am gonna make sure its - I "liked" you.

I've so many things I want to do. Going India and Cambodia. Taking my basic fitness course after the Os. Work. And lots of things basically. Really looking forward for the two overseas trip. I really love to touch the hearts of those kids. Their smiles melt my heart. I made a promise to those kids in Cambodia that I'll return next year. I suppose in a moment of impulsiveness I did that. However, I do not intend to break that promise.

The India trip really gave me a dilemma today. A HUGE one.. Am sorry I lost my cool. I just felt so oppressed.. However, I believe in God.

Its time, to forget things.
I still have to move on.
Dont point clinging on to meaningless things

Am really depressed.. When will it ever end? Deep down, there lies my true heart..
I hate my heart..
Am not as strong as I appear to be..

My blog is basically a emo blog. HAAA cause most of the time, I only blog when am upset.