Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Been long since I post anything up..

Sian.. Maths cant get full marks liao.. One careless mistake. Make me lose one mark=.=

Yesterday kinda boring.. Geography was okok, but example give wrong country =.=" Will I still get to secure the position of the top student in Humans? Looks like injuries is inevitable when I play sports during PE. Every time, people must injure me one =.=".
Bullshit.. Later got scar!!! NOOOOOO!!!!! I will cry. I care for my face.

The so called world we live in, comes with many complications. A question that no one can answer =.=" What do they serves us? Why cant things be perfect? Thinking bout this, I feel like giving up doing something =.=" Perhaps no.. Misery, Hatred etc. Humanity sigh.. Humanity.. F*** care all bout my dilemma and worries. However, thats impossible for a guy like me. Why cant people be more thoughtful sometimes =.="
Dudes, words are powerful. Some people may be unable to take it.

Problem in love/friends.. This seems to be the main case for many people =.=" Maintaining love is not easy, once you get the hang of it its fine. Sometimes I pray to god and said "Let me like no one and lead a simple lifestyle with no worries"
Which is impossible. I cant believe Yan Hui like no one =.=" Probably because your quite no-life(no offence) Yan Hui: I can never survive playing com/tv all day at home. How i envy you. Thats something good bout you people :/

Chinese test, prepare to get a D or a C.

I just want to learn something new and get good at it =.=" I feel so retarded and must learn new things =.= Common test week kinda fine and suck. I get to sit near the windows XD so nice. Miss Loh marked the paper and said got alot of grammar mistakes. That not much of a worry. I seldom make those mistakes, unless I write too much/fast. And i got this feeling that my content gonna screw up :(.Hai..


Sorry ____. Though I promised to study with you, but I failed to fulfill the promise. I am just so traumatized by what happened. I don't have the courage to even see your face.. Forgive me. However, a promise is a promise, thus I must fulfill.
Perhaps soon albeit with much tentative.

It will be offending if I bring a boy with me.. Guess going alone is still the best option.

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Its monday tomorrow and common test will be starting soon. Next week will be common test. And I must say I'm not prepared for it =X. Quite reluctant to go to school tomorrow lol.. Too lazy. Butn bo bian still must go.

Bloody hell, Joey's TomSawyer book was actually at keith's table LOL.. I thought I really lost her book. Cause Keith said he gave it to me LOL. I just had the impression that its with me =.=". Until yesterday, HOLYSHIT! Well I never regretted buying the two series for her. At least it lighten up my guilt :P. Returning the book to her on Monday. Wonder whats her reaction will be O.o

Stayed overnight at keith's house. Yesterday hanged out with JZ and K. But JZ went home after that. So left Keith and me. Then we played one match of dota and we win hooray! After that played Smackdown V Raw. Which I had not played it for like year? Felt so nostalgic man.

Going back soon to get changed and bathe. Geography homework haven do lol. Still dunno what to write about.

English competition =.="". AHHH I cant think of anything lol.
Will I be able to write a thousand word essay within 50mins?
I think I can if i pia all the way.


Anyway SCREW COMMON TEST

Monday, February 16, 2009

Retard man.. Spongbebob Spongebob.. Precisely treat you as brother then call you names what... You can also call me Tay Ta Lei. Words are superficial man. Still thought Wednesday can go gym with you one sia. But now see liao aizai buay sai. If really don't think then talk seriously about it. Only then I know your serious. You always say in such a frivolous manner, how I know your serious...
Then you suddenly like that.. Damn scary one lei.
Sorry Man. The end.


Keith you zai LOL.




Take it slow... FORGET IT PERHAPS, FUCK! FUCK EVERYTHING~ Wish I can just do that, all my dilemma and worries will be gone.

Stick to the infantile Alex back in school tomorrow :) Perhaps it can silhouette the darkness with bit of lumination. ROAR!!!







"Perhaps I'm too close too you."
Perhaps. Sometimes I wonder are you lying.(10%)

Friday, February 6, 2009

So many things happen man... AHHHHHHH! AM I STUPID IGNORANT OR BRAVE? Last Monday I argued with Mr Lok, HOW IRONIC! Sigh.. He just pissed me off too much, I don't hate him. He just can't listen to what I said and start saying that I'm a sore loser. Long story on how the incident occur. (Don't wish to say) Anyway, thank you people for cooling me down. He just made me look like a sore loser in front of the class. Later they really think Alex Tay sore loser =.=" then I bo wei kong. Can't be bothered. Then got this English Competition Writing.. Write about Singapore Folk Tales! I don't want to join one.. Then all spur me to go. Then make me motivated then I go LOL! "Thx Guys!" Henceforth, ya try my best! Now have no idea. I cant write well without any inspiration. Most of the composition I wrote were mainly mediocre, perhaps, SERIOUS THIS TIME! Just this once and see the difference. And O level registration!! GOSH!

Seriously regret not working hard during primary school life.. NOW NEED TO WASTE ONE MORE YEAR IN SECONDARY SCHOOL LIFE!! Penitence.. Penitence..

Don't know why.. Whoever I argue with, whether right or wrong. I JUST FEEL GUILTY GOSH! WTF IS WRONG!! Currently reading a book which I brought from Kinokuniya to pastime.

Sometimes I just cant understand why people like to pry in others so much that they hurt they feelings. And those people with their megalomaniacal hubris, just like to bitch and boost around. Self-proclaims craps. You want to boost at least have the "ingredient" to do so. Yes we must be proud of ourselves but not to some extent. It's not always easy to maintain a equilibrium between things. And the polarity of "stress" and "lament"

Last time I scold people also won't feel guilty one lor. Now the Mr Lok really think I bai kia and a bloody sore loser. Don't insult me by associating me in that category man. This month I just piss off more easily..

I a bit traumatised la. Bloody hell.. Breaking Dawn take bout a month? Guess I have to turn to KINOKUNIYA again! The best bookshop in Singapore(I think). Maybe going later. I have so many books I want to read. Been long since I started reading

I thought Aisha don't really like me then today she come talk to me.. What a surprise. Good sign! All my problems seems to be gone already. Except a few major ones. Keith, its possible to psycho yourself? I will try! Have to inculcate it into my brain for days weeks months?

Perhaps I should divert my attention.

To Yong Kiat> I really believe that's a real bread initially! =X

Me? Get a new life. Gosh it made me feel nostalgic. The good things are always so difficult to savor. Its something unfathomable.

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Friday was uber gay. Cause my friend message me during English lesson then I tempted to reply so I did. Then I put it under my desk after messaging. Then stupid Zhong Hsun go take out and somehow intrigued Tzu Quan. Bloody bugger Zhong Hsun _I_. Then Tzu Quan used my phone and did something SO FU**ING IRONIC. (Shall not say)

I wanted to take back the phone when. But I know Tzu Quan confirm resist one. Thus will attract Miss Loh's attention. She quite unreasonable at times. Despite my excuse she still will confiscate one. 100% So I keep quiet and hope he dont get caught. Cause I dont want my phone to be gone. Then Miss Loh go check under Tzu Quan's desk and found phone MY PHONE! Then Tzu Quan faster past to me but still tio caught! Heng she never confiscate. Then she isolate me. Lalala PULAU UBIN.

"Some of you guys are getting worse and worse. Some more your a Councillor."
What the fu**? I cant be bothered explaining myself. Cause I used the phone to sms also. So also partly my fault. I can't lie. Does excruciating as two meaning? I checked online dictionary have. 1:intense pain 2:embarrassing. So I used the second meaning in my compo writing. Then she say only got one meaning. Whose right? Dictionary or her? I wrote the compo without inspiration just wanna complete it and get over with it. Passion Love etc. Then I think of _________ and my mood just gets worse. I'm still surprised I managed to get 18/30 with the mood and attitude I'm writing. Then Brenda Darshen ask me how much I scored. I sort of feel like I disappointed them. Darshen probably happy that he beat me. I think I'm his rival. He wrote about Celebrity. No wonder so high HAHA! And to 4EN. I'm much more than what you know. The Alex you know in school is not the real Alex. Do not think I'm damn passive and childish. Actually in fact I'm not. The real Alex may not be what you wish/desire for. Cause I don't wanna revert back to the past. But extreme anger in me will thus show my true colors. Cause up till now, no one in school pissed me off that much. I will only sort of show my true-self to those I seriously hate. For now I hate no one except my ___(but for now not really hate) I grew up in a violent environment. When I was young, I'm extremely vociferous, naive, vehement and truculent. But now I'm not. But somehow some of those words are coming back to form me. You may think that Alex is those who doesnt dare to fight. Then your extremely wrong. Of course for righteousness. He may look happy, but he doesnt really show his sadness. You may think his a nerd but his not. However, now I'm starting to like my new-self. Not vociferous, vehement and truculent. But don't piss me off too much. - Delicate to two person. Better stop pissing me off. The dark side of me is yet to be revealed. You might be the first person to witness.

Yes I may look evil in the last paragraph. But I'm not. I do cry for misfortunate people. I love helping people. I respect people who deserve respect. I wanna help the less fortunate ones. However, I cant and I feel so useless. I just wanna help those who are seriously in need BUT I CANT. Whenever I use the word "FUCK" shows that I'm serious and vehement. But sometimes I want to take initiative but dont dare. Lack of confidence.(Currently working on it) I'm also not a Casanova. I just merely interacting with girls. If you think I'm a Casanova. Then when you talk to your mother your flirting with her? Come on, THINK!

Got one bloody bitch trying to sabo me. Say I spread _______________ to people around. Why must sabo me sia. What for I spread ______________ to the people around. Others confirm will spread one. But I have a strong feeling is who spread. Shall not say anymore. Make me look like a bloody hypocrite. I HATE HYPOCRITES, NARCISSIST AND MEGALOMANIACAL people. Sometimes on msn. I am seriously scolding about someone and that someone thinks I'm joking? =.=" Why is it so. Am too passive? I geek so wad? Better than ignoramus right.

Dont be sarcastic if you cant be sarcastic. THAT SARCASTIC FACE OF YOURS SOMETHING IS REALLY PISSING ME OFF. Your doing it to my good friends. Stop thinking that your English is not "bad". My English frankly speaking is not good at all. Stop thinking so highly of yourself and be humble. And please stop criticizing about others. Plus if you dont like him just tell him. Dont tell me about he so bad or whatever. JUST TELL HIM STRAIGHT IN THE BLOODY FACE. This shows how much dignity you have for yourself.

So much dilemma so I went to look for Mr Lathif. THX MR LATHIF FOR WASTING YOUR PRECIOUS TIME ON ME :D Seriously appreciate man! XD
Man! I feel so much better! Din know you play Counterstrike. But you scared to play online cause scared addicted LOL! Good father and a teacher! HAHAHA
Relax abit man! Work is Work. BUT NO ONE CANT SURVIVE WITHOUT A SHORT BREAK!
Your the most hardworking teacher I ever seen. I still remember Zhong Hsun and me stayed back till 8+pm to ask you about Amaths. Too bad you cant get to read it LOL cause its a private blog. Your passion to teach is really astonishing and amazing. Beyond comprehension.

I dont like people to give me false hope. Just be direct and shoot the facts. Don't say something optimistic when you already know its gonna be a failure. When I play dota. Despite I know I already lost. I will not give up and keep on playing! CAUSE I'm NOT A TYPICAL IN WARCRAFT BATTLE BNET! I HAVE MY PRIDE! 90% of the players are just leavers. BULLSHIT!

It hurts even more. OMG almost 2am now. And i need to wake up at 6am LOL! Nevermind I also nvr sleep go sch before! HaHaHA. Sometimes I think I'm childish. But it makes me happy. Dont let me think about all the dilemma I have. I dunno whether my benevolence is authentic a not. Will you sacrifice your life to save many lives.(Yes) Will brave danger to save the girl you like?(Yes). Time will TELL! Am I faithful?(YES YES YES)

I like this song a lot. Don't know why. Try listening? Haha
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Saturday, January 31, 2009

Stay overnight in Keith's house on Friday after all the playing at AMK arcade LOL!
Used his laptop to play dota and played halo2 afterwards. (And I got owned by Keith =( ) Then next game team with Keith. Quite fun.. I kept following Keith around LOL. Feel insecure going alone. Then Keith brother so pro. I shoot him so long he shoot me back then I die =.="" But his friend is so funny! My majority of the kills comes from him XD. The game ended around 12am plus. Then we go mac and eat. He never eat =.=" Then went back and look at school year book(where all the craps comes in =X) Then look at all the photos and blahblah LOL. Then sleep. Before sleep also crap like never crap before. Slept at 2plus am.

Woke up at 8plus and Keith was snoring. After that I go sleep. Then i ask Keith i got snore a not he say have LOL. So funny, we both "SNORED" Then continue to slack in his house till 2plus then go back my house and I change and bathe to visit someone for bai nian. Watched Keith played blackjack with Winny and Company.(With money O.O) Then surprisingly Kenneth Chen came! Followed by Jia Zhen. Then played murderer and true or dare. Murderer damn funny! I no killer I go kill people HAHAHAHAAAA! Then trick police LOL so fun. True or Dare is kinda insane lol. Shall skip all the horrendous and beyond imagination part of what I did. Then play True or Dare for so damn long. Then Kenneth went home around 9.13pm. Then we continued to play True or Dare. Then Jia Zhen left at 11+pm. Then left Keith, Winny(and company) and me. Then I tell joke and give riddles. Then blahblah. Been long since I last talked so much with Winny.

Then left at 2+am LOL. Went to MacDonalds and eat. Went home at 3+am then saw two cats making creepy noises.(never hear before one.)then I tell my mother then she say think cat saw ghost. I'm posting now 4.36am XD



Post maybe boring. Cause too much things cant say LOL =X

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Long Post ahead. LOL (Most people won't read it)

AHHHHH Miss Loh has mood swing one sia. Really really weird. I din do her homework. She punish me write a whole story, completed before lesson ends. Cause i asked Yong Kiat got any homework. All he remember was MATHS AND CHEMISTRY. So i thought no english lol. Then I wanted to justify myself, but I will never sort of let my friend get into trouble. So i shut up and act as if I'm non-chalant about her work. Then AHHH forget it. Quite pissed off by her contradictions. She called me
"alex stapler properly." Second time "Alex glue it" I am like wtf? Then I abit pissed off and said "You want me to stapler properly then now you want me to glue?" (Raised my tone) I wonder whats her expression, cause I never really looked at her. Then I just stapler one more bullet in. But today I think I portrayed myself as a bad boy during english lesson. Ah forget it. Let's see her MOOD tomorrow.

Then today Alex Ong, Zhong Hsun, Yan hui, Yong Kiat and me talked about boy stuff to entertain ourselves(It's not dirty)

AND GOSH. DINT KNOW MY CLASS KNOW THE THING "69" Today I'm so appalled when someone said 69. LOL and it's someone ironic! Haha. But its good, healthy sign, maybe.

My classmate. Boy A and Boy B I will skip straight away to their conversation, so dont ASSUME.

Boy A - When I feel horny I won't touch girls one.
Boy B - Then next time you horny you dont touch your wife la.
Boy A - Of course I will la! I also will do sex with her.

Those who always talk about such stuff in public. I think they are not the lascivious ones.

Monday PE. I was owned by Darshen and ZhongHsun.
First Incident - I grabbed the ball first then Darshen siao liao come snatch back. That time was in a turmoil. Then all go crazy. Then he pressed on me. Then I fall down. Causing me to having lacerations! AHHHH but very minor.
Second Incident - When I'm the "Goal Keeper" I wanna catch the ball, ZhongHsun jump and hit my head. SO PAIN AHHHHH
Third Incident - When I was about to toss the ball. He come and smack my face. Then my spectacles dragged along my skin. And now got scar! Don't know will heal a not. Some people when they get so excited and engrossed that they compromise their friends safety =.="

Today want go gym one. Then all last minute say cannot, wtf! And my hair is freaking long and I wanna get it cut so soon! Cant style properly~~ Also I lazy to style. Cause morning my hair super messy one. So I must wax it. But most of time I anyhow one lol.